I can imagine we’ve all been there a time or two. Wondering if we had it in us to keep on keeping on? I know I have, and some days are tougher than others. Thinking back to a day earlier this year as I was sitting and writing with my ankle propped up on a tall chair, still on ice 12 days post mishap. It was all sorts of colors, twice it’s size and pulsating heat. For the second week in a row unable to work I had to trust that God had it all under control (and He did). My all-time favorite bible verse is Jeremiah 29:11 (New International Version) For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. This always makes me think of the importance of doing our part in the process of the success God would have for us.
We all have our own free will and therefore we must do our best to walk according to Gods will for our lives. Oftentimes however life’s circumstances can make us feel well…. LESS THAN. This is where we need to be courageous and step out of our comfort zones. Around 10 years ago I found myself in a place I never imagined I would be. Raising three children as a single mom, life had taken some less than perfect turns and I had to learn to roll with the punches. In the last decade I have lost more than my share of loved ones way before their time due to, once again, unforeseen circumstances that seemed to have come from out of the blue. It is so easy to make poor choices when our hearts are crushed and we feel lost. In these times, we (or at least I) tend to question our faith God and so much more.
I can honestly say I got stuck, for far too long. Most of the questions I found myself asking were why? Why God did you allow two of my best friends to die way before their time? Why did they not get a chance to tell their families goodbye? Why God did you take my brother at only 31 years of age. He was still so full of life and left behind two very little children who will now have to live without an amazing man. Why wasn’t I a better wife? mom? friend? I had to figure things out, mostly through trial and error. I have so much to be apologetic for and also so much to be thankful for (mainly God’s grace and forgiveness).
Raising three young kids in a single parent home made me scared. I decided I had to go to get the education I didn’t get after high school at the age of 40. It was frightening, I had been out of school for 22 years and truth be told; I didn’t do all that well the first time around. Fast forward five and a half years; I finally graduated (Summa cum Laude) due mostly in part to my three amazing kids, a non-existent social life, hard work, discipline and a lot of prayer. Jeremiah 29:11 still holds true and 2016 is going to be the year of increase and restoration. Let’s make this our best year yet. Anybody with me?